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One of the most difficult decisions many Muslim sisters face is
the decision to start wearing hijab. This is certainly true for
reverts, but may also be true for sisters whose families or even
whose cultures are not particularly observant. As a revert myself,
I have been through the whole thing. I would like to offer some
advice that I hope inshallah will be helpful to sisters who are
considering wearing hijab but find that something is holding them
back.
The first step is to learn about hijab. There is so much information
out there. Many Muslim sisters who will assist you in this regard.
Deciding to wear Hijab
This is where the difficulties usually come in. For many sisters,
it truly is a jihad. I remember very vividly how scared I was the
first day I put on the headscarf and went out into public. As long
as you are just wearing the modest clothes, nobody has to know that
you are a Muslim. Once you complete your hijab with the headscarf,
you are suddenly announcing to everyone who sees you that "I
am a Muslim". Here is some advice based on my own experiences.
Wear it for the sake of Allah SWT
Various statements are made about why you should wear hijab, such
as for modesty or for protection, but the real reason that we wear
hijab is that Allah SWT has commanded it. Whenever anyone asks you,
why do you dress like that, that's the only answer you need to give
them.
Allah SWT is the source of everything we have, our existence, our
life, our capability, even our goodness. If He ever stopped sustaining
us, we would vanish in that instant. If He ever took away what he
gives us, we would never have even a speck of it. If we worked for
millions of years, we could never repay Him for all that He has
given us. And yet He does give it to us, and all He asks in return
is that we do our best to obey what He has commanded us. Surely
wearing hijab is a very small thing that you can do for Him compared
to what He does for you!
Wear it for the hope of Jannah
Allah SWT makes tests for us in this world. He makes things difficult
for us. He wants to see if we will remember Him, if we will have
faith in Him, and if we will trust in Him. These qualities are what
is meant by "sabr".
Allah SWT does not lose the work of anyone, ever (see Surah Ali
Imran ayah 195). Even if it seems like nobody is paying attention
to you or notices or appreciates good things that you do, Allah
SWT has seen them, and He will not forget them. Even when it seems
like the whole world is against you, Allah SWT is always there for
you when you turn to Him. Remember this.
Allah SWT always wants the best for us and in His wisdom He knows
why each thing that happens to us is in fact best for us. When it
seems like everything is going wrong and life is just one disaster
after another, it is easy to forget this and to become bitter and
skeptical. Yet we must remember always to have faith that Allah
SWT knows best why He has willed this for us, and we must always
ask Him only "Make me pleased with what You have willed for
me".
This world we live in, although it seems at times to be the only
real thing, is actually fleeting compared to the Hereafter, which
is better and more abiding. The trials of this world will seem as
fleeting as a nightmare when seen from the Hereafter, and the pleasures
of this world will also seem as fleeting as a dream when seen from
the Hereafter. It's our happiness in the Hereafter that we should
be most worried about attaining, because it is what will last forever;
and it's our suffering in the Hereafter that we should be most worried
about avoiding, because it also will last forever.
Allah SWT has promised Jannah to those who remain steadfast in
their faith in Him and who trust in Him. The more difficult it is
for you to have sabr, the greater the reward for it. So what will
it be? Ease in this world, and perhaps the eternal sufferings in
Hell? Or difficulty in this world, and inshallah the eternal bliss
of Jannah? Let's face it, the old cliches are true: there's no such
thing as a free lunch and you can almost never have your cake and
eat it too. We've all got to face difficulties some time. Better
by far that they be in the world than in the Hereafter.
So that's what you should set your mind to. Yes, it's difficult
to wear hijab. You may be rejected by your family or your friends,
you may face harassment and persecution or be fired from your job.
These are very scary thoughts. But if you have sabr and keep trusting
in Allah SWT, I swear to you sister, this is the path to Jannah,
and when you look back on the Day of Qiyamah you will know that
it was worth it and have no regrets.
Wear it today and trust in Allah SWT for tomorrow
What do I mean by that? What I mean is that you should take it one
day at a time, or even one outing at a time. Sometimes the future
seems to stretch on forever and ever and you don't think you can
make it that long. You want to give up before you even begin.
So sometimes the best thing to do is to keep you mind focused on
what is immediately at hand. Allah SWT will take care of the future.
If you have to go out to the market, then concentrate on being able
to wear hijab just for this activity and on getting through it.
If you do get through it and nothing bad happened, then give thanks
to Allah SWT for making it easy for you, and turn your mind to your
next outing.
Or if you have to go out to school or work, then concentrate on
being able to wear hijab just for this one day and on getting through
it. And give thanks to Allah SWT when you have made it, and turn
your mind to the next day.
Eventually the outings will turn into days and the days into weeks,
and the weeks into months. One day you will realize that you have
been wearing hijab for quite a long time and it isn't really as
bad as you feared, and Allah SWT helped you get through it. Don't
be ashamed. Sometimes it is like this. The most important thing
is to have sabr and keep your trust in Allah SWT always.
Wear it and spite the shaytan
My dear sister, the worries and fears in your mind are the whisperings
of the shaytan. He wants to talk you out of obeying Allah SWT.
It is very easy to keep going around in circles in your mind and
to dwell on all the things that could go wrong. I know that I myself
have a tendency to do this, I put it off and I dither and I wait
for "the perfect time". If I let myself, I would never
do anything at all!
So the thing you have to remember is that you do not need to be
perfect in iman to wear hijab. If perfection were a qualification,
where is the sister who could wear it??
You must also not fall into the trap of thinking that you should
wait until all your worries and fears have disappeared. They never
will! Trust me on this, sister.
True courage is going ahead to do what's right even though you
are still nervous and scared. So don't listen to the shaytan. Ignore
the worries and fears he whispers into your mind. Tell him that
you will not let him keep you from obeying Allah SWT and you will
not let him rule your life.
Make the decision to wear it
Once you have come to know in your heart that you must wear hijab,
then you have to set a day and
JUST DO IT !!
This is the only way. Set a day and when that day comes, you have
to do it. Don't back down. Don't give up. Do it.
Offer salat al-istikhara. Make du'a. Make lots of du'a. Do not stop
making du'a. Ask Allah SWT to give you strength. Ask Him to make
it easy for you. Ask Him to help you. He will, I swear it to you.
He is always there for you when you turn to Him. Remember how much
He has given you, how everything that you have, even your very existence,
is due to Him. Remember that He deserves this from you. Remember
the promise of Jannah. Remember that remaining patient and faithful
through difficulty now may lead to Jannah, inshallah. Even if bad
things happen, keep these thoughts in your mind. Don't worry about
tomorrow. Just concentrate on getting through today, and leave tomorrow
to Allah SWT until it gets here.
That's how you do it.
Final Words of Encouragement
I have been wearing hijab since September 1999. I do not regret
it. I have never for one instant regretted it. I do not regret it
even one iota. Inshallah, you will discover that you feel the same.
Even within a few months I came to feel that I would not be properly
dressed if I went out not wearing hijab. This is when you know that
you have made it!
Never feel that you are alone, or that you are the only one who
is scared and worried and nervous. Just about every other sister
who has travelled down this road has gone through the same things.
I know I have. Your sisters are here for you. We have been where
you are. We are encouraging you and cheering you on. We know what
it takes because we had to find that in ourselves too. We are praying
for your success just as we prayed for our own.
Come and join us.
Allah does not burden a soul except what it can bear. For it is
what it has earned, and upon it is what it has made due. "Our
Lord and Sustainer, do not condemn us if we forget or do wrong.
Our Lord and Sustainer, do not put a burden on us like the burden
You put on those who were before us. Our Lord and Sustainer, do
not put a burden on us that we cannot endure. And blot out (our
sins) and forgive us, and be gentle to us. You are our Protector.
So help us against the rejectors." (Surah al-Baqarat ayah 286)
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